Stop and smell the crap.

Stop and smell the crap.

Yup, sometimes the most unpleasant smell can bring you back to your senses. The smell of things that make you go "urghhhhh", the smell that contaminates your surroundings, the smell that makes you wanna puke, the smell that clouds your judgement, the smell that confuses your mind, the more you do the more crap you get.

Hahaaa life is funny sometimes, the worst things in life shows you the best you could actually get or maybe deserve.

Yes life is crappy sometimes. Spray some perfume and move on.

Let's love me again, shall we?

Dear heart,

I know you're hurting now but it will all be okay soon. I'll love you more and nurse the pain away, that's the promise I'll keep longer this time. Please forgive me for loving you less in the last couple of months, it was stupid and reckless of me to sacrifice loving you in replacement of another. In the last couple of months we've both experienced lots of amazing and happy moments with several beautiful pains in the middle of it all. Again, I'm sorry for neglecting you and loving another more... let's give it another try, shall we?

Love, me.

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger... and prettier.

Being angry is easy... just takes a simple spark of negativity, be it intentionally or unintentionally. All it takes is for that one negative news or information or maybe a simple gesture from someone you love or care about or maybe some random ordinary people. But what's the fun in doing easy stuff right? So don't do the easy stuff and expected by most people. Take the difficult path of staying calm even if it takes all the nerves buttons in your body to do so. Just take a deep breath and rationalize your thoughts before getting angry and all boiled up.

Recent events in my life has not been all fun and dandy, some are just too negative and toxic. And much to my shame, I've reacted equally negative to all that. Haihhh... I've always prided myself to remain positive in some of the worst situations, something that I've trained myself to do for the last few years. Yet, for the last year I've somehow been sucked into an intoxicated swirling pool of negativity. The worst part is that it was somehow a concious course of action, allowing myself to be a part of the things I don't like. In managing these stuff a part of me somehow made the decision to just drop it all and get away.. far away from the toxic environment, easiest way out. Again, the key word is easy hahahaa everybody wants the easy way out but in my case, it didn't turn out to be that easy and I'm thankful to Allah. In times of doubt always remember that Allah *or whatever God you pray to* will never put you in a situation that you can't handle. He knows best and always gives you what you want. Remember when you prayed for strength to keep going on? the strength to be a better person? if you ever prayed for that then embrace the tests that He gives you for you'll never know how strong you are until you are pushed to a corner. So you being in any situation that you like or dislike is already calculated by Him, He knows you're ready for it... so embrace whatever situation you're in, no matter how shitty you think it might be. Hey, whatever doesn't kill you makes you stronger eh? and in my case prettier and a pain in the butt for all them haters!

Ciao!

From 2012 to 2016 and life goes on

It's mid 2016 and the last post was January 2012. Many things happened, like the world didn't end in 2012 and I'm already in the 4-series club hahaa been meaning to update this blog but due to lack of updates *read: new drama* and of course the classic reason of lack of time.
So...another classic question of "where do I start?" and this time I'm not answering the question and this post will be another rant about life in general.

4 years had passed and I've lost some friends and made new ones. Lost some hopes and gained new ones. Lost some sense of humor about life and got new ones. Lost some happiness and sadness but no love lost along the way. Lost some sanity and youth and never got any hahaha  All these losses wasn't in vain and as cliche as it sounds, learnt new knowledge and experiences. In the past year itself, I've learnt a lot of power and how it changes people even those with the best intentions at heart. And it saddens how my heart and brain refused to accept this cold reality of life *sigh*

Life goes on... and so does this blog. So, I'll try to write more soon.