2012...the ending or a new beginning

I would really like to start this blog with a “Happy New Year” but then again, it’s already the 3^rd week of 2012 and new year wishes are a bit to old yes?haha anyway, I have been meaning to update this blog, I really do coz God know how much episodes of drama that I went through to get till the end of the year, To start of is of course about my 2^nd half a.k.a housemate a.k.a bedmate a.k.a life partner of 13 years but then again, I really have no updates about “us”, it’s same old same old…but what I’d like to share is that I have discovered a new part of me, a surprising discovery on love and that is I have lost faith in the concept of love, romantic love between a man and a woman. Call me skeptic or cynic but after all that I have been through, I have simply lost believe in it and accepted the fact that maybe it’s not for me. Well, actually some of friends sort of share my sentiments on this matter…when we hear someone’s getting married, some of us actually responded out loud “WHY????” hahahaa some even made bets on how long some of these marriages will actually last *errkkk* What does love means to a couple? Does it mean complete trust and allowing your love all the freedom in the world? That sound like ignorant to me or simply too lazy to bother or some people will call it “taking things for granted” so when you take things for granted does it still mean “love” to u.. Another side of love is of course when your lover is always concerned about where you are and what you’re up to….but the question to ask is why? For some lovers it’s just being possessive and not wanting other people share their lover’s time and life..yeah,in a way that’s good because your lover is appreciating you and not taking you for granted but what about the saying “if u love someone set them free blah blah blah..” hahaaa so there you have it, I have presented two sides of a love that has led me to no longer believe in the concept of romantic love between a man and a woman…so, what do I do next? Hahahaa I really don’t know but one thing for sure I’m not so hard up on the lack of love in my life…yeah, of course I’m sad for losing the belief of love in my life but there’s always some ways for me to fill up the hollow of emptiness in my heart for example…making more friends, especially with the younger ones hahahaa since I don’t believe the concept of romantic love anymore, there’s less risk of getting hurt right? *theoretically correct* bottom line is, the less you believe in the whole concept the less it will hurt u right…like they always say, expectation kills and therefore expecting too much love is definitely a death sentence….so if you need to love, let it be yourself more before loving others J so turns out I’m not that cynical about love as much as I made it out to be huh? Hahahahaaa typical me but like I said earlier, 2012 is either an ending or a new beginning  and it’s always your choice…ok, I’m just gonna say it anyway…”Happy New Year!!!!”