This ain't a love song and that's not a bad thing

You can't force feelings, many songs have been written on this. Yet most people don't realize the truth of this matter until you're in that situation and yes, I for one truly understand this. Urghhhhh it's bloody annoying!

After 2 months of emotional roller coaster ride, I'm amazed at how little is understood by my *currently* other half. Maybe he's just being stubborn and find comfort living in denial of the whole situation. Perhaps it's just hope mixed with the fear of walking an unknown unchartered path. Yes, it's scary being alone but sometimes being alone makes you a stronger person. Maybe it's simply the fear of change... or maybe it's the combination of all these.  It's also weird how a small action causes a huge reaction in the relationship. A sudden pour of affection, attention and romantic gestures is definitely not something that'll be appreciated in the current circumstances. Worse is that when these actions are expected to be reciprocal and you're cornered to feel guilty when it's not. I can't... been a hypocrite for quite some time but now that the cat's out of the bag it'll be wrong to act otherwise. 

So how do you get these feelings on board again? I don't really have a formula but if you don't know it too then maybe we're currently at the right place. But one thing for sure, at times like this patience is a virtue. Again, many songs have been written on this matter but now that I'm in this predicament I can safely say that... yes, only time will tell. 

Listening to songs about life ain't such a bad idea for now, these songwriters really know their stuff and it's time people like us start believing their stories. So turn on the radio and crank up the volume!