Silence is not always golden

A lot has happened since the last time I updated this blog.. Well, most of the time I’ve been on a crazy emotional ride hahaha not that it’s such a rare occasion nowadays. To start with, I’m on the right track of completing a paper that I’ve been dreading to write and that’s good news and at times like this, I find that I’m at my most peaceful moment. Yup, I’m truly in love with what I do though sometimes the love had been taken for granted, quite how many things or people have taken me for granted. Guess karma does work in its most mysterious ways, huh? For a start, my ever emotional turbulent love life with my other significant half.. Well, actually it’s had already passed the turbulence stage as I can’t seem to rock the boat anymore…be it in the nice or not so nice way. Last few weeks, I was presented with a moment that I saw as an opportunity to start a “decent” ground for discussion. However, much to my surprise the moment had (miserably) failed to even start a simple discussion on our life despite my efforts to stir things up..hahahaaa God knows I’m an expert at provoking the situations with my so-called rhetorical questions. Come to think of it, I’ve always thought that I’m blessed with such talents..ok, let’s not go there. Anyway, after failing miserably to spark an avenue for discussion, things sort of have settled down into a very somber and un-interesting sort of communication…which is the “silent war” but in a very civilized manner…ironically, I have this nagging feeling that it’s very uncomfortable for him to ignore the “silence” between us but he’s doing very well at ignoring and looks as if he’s on the path of winning. Is being silent the correct path to winning? Honestly, I don’t really know. All my many years in relationships, be it romantic or not..l’ve always known that the moment you stopped talking is the moment where u couldn’t be bothered to care. Could it be? *sigh* considering these crazy uncomfortable moments, I have sort of decided to try a radical move but I’ve yet the courage to even start it. Maybe in my next update eh?